Today is the 22nd March 2012 .

Three days on, and I'm still having a heartache . I've never had a heartache over us for so long before, this was the first .

Maybe it's because I failed to acknowledge this problem before and now that I'm actually facing it, it really hurts .

How sad it is . But do you know ? Or just sit by the TV and Facebook/Yahoo News all day waiting for time to sleep .

There's been a few times that the problem was acknowledge, but the topic was changed shortly after . Do you not want us to last ?

I feel distance building between us these days, haven't you ?

Do you tell me everything ? I bet no .

Yeah i was wrong to keep on delaying finding a job, i was wrong to keep on talking to guys you don't like that happens to be on my good friends list, i was wrong to be petty over the slightest thing, i was wrong to be anti-social to the people i don't think i can get along with, i was wrong for so many things .

Well, i didn't say i was perfect, i didn't ask you to hold my hand the night we were at east coast park, i didn't force you to get married with me .

I'm sorry i didn't love you the way you wanted me to, but i still do . Do you ?